Was looking through my past blog entries... I guess retro/nostalgia is starting to kick in to me. Yes, i've started posting photos from the past (from baby photos to kid to graduation), looking through the scanned photos of the past 20++ years or so, and marvel at how pple changed over the years! It's really interesting going through the phase called 'Growing up'. There was a period of young n innocent, a period of nonsensical fashion sense, flat hair and high waisted jeans. Those were the days.....
Anyway, was reading through the blogs, especially blog written on March 23 2007 on Blissful! For those who have forgotten, please refer to March 23 2007 entry on my definition of Blissful. Yes i said i was NOT blissful and WILL NOT be for years to come. I think, pple mature through the years and thinking changed.. Come to think of it, i was too harsh on my words. Reflection upon my current status and thinking, I think Simplicity is Bliss :) It chanced upon me yesterday when i was surfing through Facebook and noted one of my fren's facebook comments - "I am a simple man with a simple heart". It made me think - 简单就是美。Imagine a world where life is just simple, no pressure to perform or shine, e'rything is peaceful and simple, just like the life of the villagers in Vietnam (Sapa). U c happiness written across their faces! Granted, they have poor access to clean water, poor sanitation or even less than desirable food, but u just feel like they are satisfied with their way of living!
Beauty in life lies in simplicity. Nowadays, in the current world, survivor of the fittest is KEY. Survivor feeds competition feeds pressure. Everyone is so caught up with work and work and how to work even harder tat we forget our surrounding and minuscule things around us that matter most, or that makes us smile! How many times have we slowed down, sit in the park n njoy the day just doing nth n reading? I admit that I don even do tat! I was in Sydney in Sept. What i saw was pple sitting outside the air-conditioned bldgs, having their simple packed lunch, sitting outside njoying the sun and food and just some peace alone time, reading. Simple but it's theraupeutic. Or in the morning, just sitting by the bench, reading a book for a couple of minutes b4 heading to work! Well, we don't do tat in SG. We would rather spend tat 10mins catching up on sleep than to go out n read a book! Maybe it's the difference in culture, maybe it's the difference in mentality, but whn I look back at this, I feel like 'Hey, y don't we do tat'? I ask myself, and the answer I gave is 'I rather sleep'. Yes, I admit even tho i envy tat kinda carefree lifestyle, I too m guilty of rather sleeping...
Blissful... I think i'm alot more open on this idea than 1 year ago. Granted my life is not perfect, I mean no one is perfect! Look at those millionaire superstars, do u think they r perfect?? They have loads of money but no privacy, lots of stupid gossips. Of cos who doesnt like to have loads of $$, but $$ can't buy love, can't buy true friendship. I have all my friends ard me, I have my family ard me, I have gd fun colleagues ard me, I have a gd stable job. What's not to like abt my life?? Yes, I still don't have a boyfriend (working hard in the process), I still don't have 1mil in my bank acct. But hey those r additional perks! I have my health, my life! I should be grateful for that!
I m blissed with having a grp of crappy psychotic frens who can go crazy with me (don't have to act up in front of them). Granted some tend to be 重色轻友 and it actually do hurt when tat happened, but what r frens for! U noe that they'll come back to u and u'r the one they seek solace from in times of trouble or vice versa. It's hard to let years of friendship just go down the drain just cos of a few unhappy incidents. Let Bygones b Bygones.. Give and let go :) It feels good to be able to b there for frens whn they nd u. N they know that!
I m blissed to have my family still ard. Yes, i'm guilty of not communicating with them often. I guess that's just the way we were brought up, my dad being the 'master' of the family, creating a barrier between making it hard to talk to him freely. But hey, at least I know they'r alwz there if I nd help. Over the years, I have learnt to soften the defence wall I have built ard myself, and tried to communicate more... It's a slow learning process..
I m blissed to have good fun colleagues for the past 4 years since my graduation. Not some snorty, high class pple who don't bother to joke and b crazy with u. It's so impt to have good colleagues..
I m blissed to have good jobs so far. My life in EY can b considered one of the bter ones, not having those shitty portfolios, late nites r not as plenty as others.. Current job is good with good exposure n boss, not having to slog late hrs as well..
N my health is still with me, working twds a much bter physique and stamina! I have my whole life in front of me still! Many areas n lands unexplored!!
I m blissed with the fact that I can continue my exploration of the land beyond! So what can I say...
It's time to try to let go of myself.. Over the years, I have put up too many defenses, too many criterias for myself to fulfil. Sometimes, being too hard on myself. I'm not a perfectionist, but I have certain criterias that I muz c myself stick to. Mayb it's time to redefine these criterias and set new ones...
I feel blissed.. I m blissful... Learn to let go...
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